he~

you thought you could forget about him-

the happy moments

the sad moments

the embarrassing moments

the happy moments when you saw him

the sad moments when u didn't

the embarrassing moments when u made a fool of urself

u thought u could control your heart.

u thought u would nvr be hurt again.

but then u realised.

u couldnt forget him at all.

he.was a part of your life already

u wish him all the best.

and wants him to be happy.

yet u want him to be happy

only when he's with you.

you were lead on by him.

u thought they were hints

when he stared at ur room for no reason

u thought it was.

but then still,

nothing happens.

u forgot about him completely one day.

but the next week,

he appeared again.

sometimes u just wished that u had met him earlier.

[ sometimes you wished you had never ever met him ]

but u found out u could nvr forget him completely.

because he was your life.

[ i copied this from felicia's/capsee's blog.i find it really meaningful.it somehow relates to my situation i guess. thankew felicia! ]

okie.today's my mum's birthday.happy birthday mum!(:i'm happy the fortune teller was wrong!hahas.i'm supposedly supposed to do photog.but the damned thing's so difficult to do.and i give up.okie.so we went to jack's place to eat lunch.then i saw cehn zhicai, the mediacorp actor.then he was like starring at us.my mum said he was starring to see if ppl recognised him?like whatever?haha.he's childish.he told his children.'1,2,3.cross!' cuz they were crossing the road.haha.i didnt manage to get much studying done.tried studying amaths.but i felt dizzy and kept stopping.then when eventually i got into the mood of dg, the cake arrived.and it was time to eat cake.haha.i really ate a lot of stuff today.firstly, in the morning, i ate bread with peanut butter spread.then aft tt, we went to jacks place and i ate steak.i tried it for the first time.haha.then my bro ordered the kid's meal, then my other bro and i decided to see how much time he took to finish his kid's meal.i betted 10 mins.cuz all the portions were so small.even the cola's also mini size.then i kept grinning away whenever i saw miniature stuff.but my mum caught me grinning.(:.then when we went back hm, my maid fried fries, sotong ball, youtiao and baked chicken wing.wow?i ate so much stuff okayy.and theres no mass run tmr cuz i have duty??ugh.why take away mass run when i want it?when i want it??so my ppt slide's done halfway and i dont intend to do alr.and i must really do sth about my story.either i let someone write it for me.or i find time to write.grabbing every opportunity i have.eg, free time.hahas.it's past 11 now.sometimes i really wished tt i hadn't known him.then i wouldnt be dreaming so much.and use more of the dreaming time to sleep.lol.but then again.if i hadn't known him, i wouldn't know the feeling of..liking someone?anw, this is so crappy and i dunno what i'm talking about.haha.oh yeah.samho called me just now.then my bro answered.then he said tt samantha was looking for samantha.whatever la!

haha,i'm gonna get twin's album, ahead of cyndi's.haha.maybe i wont buy cyndi's afterall.since so many singers are launching new albums now.eg, F.I.R, JJ, who else.i know got a lot.yeah, k one, and the j stars jing xuan.hahas

i gtg now.((:.i hope i'll do well in amaths test.and chem as well

okie.it's 3 mins to 12.just reached home from sch.reached hm at 11 can.like.so early?!?haha.it was quite fun lahh.even though i gave it a low grade.hahas.did ava duty.so had free admission.(:but i like the tickets.it's a nice design lorr.then the ppl at the entrance tore the tickets.like destroying such a nice piece of thing.but.tickets are meant to be torn?haha.i liked the special items.jasmine was shuai.(:then annabel was asking me if she was a guy or a girl.haha.and i kept telling chloe tt i liked her voice.her sore throat voice.lol.doing duty backstage was fun.but i'm tiredd.and i almost kept making mistakes.cuz the comperes talked in bits and pieces.then i kept thinking.'when can i open, when can i open?hurry!!!'.then when we had to push the rostrum out, we made a fool out of ourselves okay.i thought the flag poles were very heavy and couldnt be pushed??then i kept telling huimin tt cannot.then she asked me to try.and i almost got squashed by the rostrum when they tried pushing.okay.tt's the nice part of it.the not-so-nice part of it was during the dry run.at first they said tt they wanted the curtains opended and closed.then it's like, wth lorr.those people performing not even on stage yet.and the freaking person was like outside.'curtains open!'.and then those ppl havent gotten ready.and then when i open when they havent gotten ready.they said.'open when they are ready'.then what do you want me to do lorh?outside hurrying.then inside not ready.how to open can.then i crushed papers.the programme sheet to be exact.i crushed one and it could still stand.(:.i stood for the whole thing.oh yeah.another thing to mention was the dinner!!the contents of the food packet.1 piece of disgusting fishcake.(why it is disgusting is for me to know and for you to find out(:!)haha.i guess.not many people know.okay.and there was rice,which was supposed to look like fried rice?but it's so plain?and tasteless??and one senior said tt it was peppered rice?lol.and there was cabbage.which was so hard and full of garlic.so poor and lousy.oh yeah.and at the end, they didnt thank the ava crew.amanda came and tell me, then i was like.yeah lorr.always like that.but.we'll get used to it.
okay.that's the end for crezawards/
i barely passed the chem test lorh.i admit i was disappointed.but i'll work harder.not in a very good mood today.josie tan's cheating us of our 500 bucks.dont want to give jiu say lorr.what's their problem.okie.if i go on and on.i'll start scolding vulgarities.so i shall end here.nitez ppl who are still awake.

okies

i've finished all my holiday homework.tmr i just have to study for chem and emaths test.((:haha.it's 10 to 12 now.early to me now.cuz i've been sleeping at 12 or 1 plus everyday.haha.heh.*grins sheepishly*.actually i still have a math rev ex 4 to do.but since i dunno how to.ignorance is blissss.(:hahas.the last hw i finished was bio essay.it gave me a big headache okay.i had to search the web for it.it's like the answers are not even in the textbook?haha.but at least it's over now.gotten it over and done with.okay.this holiday.i have not accomplished much.only did what was required of me.and i didnt have much revision.hm.nut my tutor also taught me a new amaths topic.but i still have to clarify it more.haha.and amanda's starting to like gedou.(:

oh yeah.and i watched the lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events.it was funny.not even a bit of scariness.haha.and i actually thought it was a horror film.and i think we're gg to watch hitch tmr.

hahas.and i bought my digicam le.(:it's nice.

even though it wasnt really what i wanted.actually wanted a canon one.but the canon one's lousy.and i coudnt afford the one which i had a paper one of.haha.so in the end i got the olympus one.it's nice.the thing u push to open and close is cute.then thing just slides open(:.haha.i'm lame la.

and i only watched gedou until ep 5.i'm slow.and i have to watch 6 tmr if i'm to lend amanda on mon.and delia havent returned me my gedou OST yett.i'm missing it.i can only listen to wont give up on radio.ugh.nvm .shall remind her on mon.hahas.i took 10 mins to type all this.(:fast huh?

my maid's coming back.whee.just now i changed my bedsheet.and my matress almost squashed me down.Lol.

hahas.gg to sleep soon..

so i shall end here.nitez everyone.and i wish those who havent finished their hw gd luck.haha.

i wish..i wish..for a good term ahead...

shit la.pissed with everything already.and now i carn have english tuition.the british council doesnt have enough ppl to start the class.and i have to join another freaking class.which is on either tue or thur.wts can.weekday.always got tonnes of hw one can.expect me to choose a day when i dont have SO much hw.like everyday's the same one can.i can continue failing and failing lorh.pissing me off day and day.urghhhhhhhhh.




when will that day ever come?

okay.why am i here again?because i'm bored and do not want to do all the homework which is piling all over my head.theres more hw than what i said last fri
a maths [revision 1 , 2, 3, 4]
e maths [ ex 3.3 . ex 3.5 . ex 4.2 .7.6]
chin.[ compre .compo.letter.diary. letter corrections.jian bao]
physics [figure out moments, theory(stability,last part)]
eng.[ tys . compre ]
lit[assignment]
ss[remedial qn.not gg to do if no time]
chem[study for chem]
bio[tys ( MCQ .structured).essay]
hist[no hw!just read up]
okay.seeing those.u know what i'm like.holidays are coming to an end soon and i'm still like that.at the starting point.zai yuan dian.life's unpredictable.i mean, u dunno what's gonna happen tmr. i might get knocked down by a car tmr touch wood!.hahas.but ya.it's true.

even if u plan things.

u cant stop the unexpected.

treasure life.

what's with all this life talk today.
i must be mad.
i sometimes feel so small.only being concerned about my own stuff and not looking at the BIGGER picture.like u know what.grow up sam!stop being so im-mature!dont just be concerned about your own things.other people have bigger problems then yours!dont always think YOUR problem is the biggest.oh btw,these are what i'm telling myself.not to anyone else.i dunno if i can finish all the hw a not.but if i have the time to sit here and scold myself, why dont i have the time to go and finish all the homework?piling all over my head.and ya.that's about all.and i have many more things to learn.learn to tolerate people who are irritating.and dont cry so easily.
things i have to learn

1.forgive and forget

2.dont bear grudges

3.stop being so childish

4.dont cry easily and let others see your weakness.

5.be tolerant and increase my tolerance level.

wow.today i really felt my anger near boiling point.i dunno what's the problem with me.in the morning i threw the clock on the floor.threw books.crumpled old newspapers.dunno what i was pissed off at either.anw, i gtg now.gg to put my head under the pile of hw again.

those who do not have to go back to sch or do any hw.enjoy ur hols.seriously

hahas.i'm here again.it's the holidays now.but i'm so filled with worry.i dunno why.these are the hw for THIS holiday okay.
1. chinese (ying yong wen, zuo wen, li jie wen da)
2. E math
3. A math
4. Lit
5. chem, study for test
okay.i think tt's about all.but i is really a lot okay.theres a lot of E and A math hw.okay.what happened ytd?hm, i went for the british council placement test thing.oh ya.something worth mentioning is that there were 2 other guys at the same table as me.then they were all left-handers.when i realised it i was surprised.never expected 3 left-handers at the same table.it's cool okay.and i got 73/80.so i'm taking the vocab course or sth.but i only got 4/10 for the interview leh.cuz i spoke so soft.then the teacher sort of couldn't read my handwriting.then he said, no pt writing of nobody can read it.i felt insulted can.hahas, and they said the test was 40 mins. but i sat in the room for more than that.was stoning.something like tt.yar.i'll be gg for english tuition starting from 26 march.it's to help me and i hope it will.and angela says maybe cindy'll be gg also.hahas.oh yeah.i talked to hect on fri night.hahs.he's nice to talk to.was complaining to him the whole time.hahas.and if u're reading, tnx for letting me complain.(:i complained about kwan.(:(:hm, angela says she now prefers kwan to ow.hm,i dunno who i prefer.but i think prefer ow.
then ytd was the campfire.i did duty with felicia.hahas.we took photos.it was fun(:cuz we had to take photos of the guides and scouts performing.then it's like so funny.when i stood at a position, the people turned the other direction.then when i went to the other direction, they again turned the other direction.it's like gen wo zuo dui like tt.then felicia also experienced the same thing.lol.but nevertheless, it was fun.the sji gut was nice.but their performance was SO funny.it was supposed to be funny.so everybody just laughed.and i went home alone.turtle had to clean up.
okay.so today my mum drove to suntec.but there was no parking space.the car park was FULL.so we had to turn back.i wanted to buy my digicam.then we went to bendemeer.my mum wanted to buy food to eat.but all the shops were closed.haha.then i walked pass a cd or vcd shop.not sure.cuz it wasnt open.then i saw this jay poster.it was so funny kae.they drew moustache and porkmarks on his face.haha.i was grinning as i walked pass it.then my mum was asking why.haha.but only jays poster was vandalised.there was xi jie shao nian one.but it was fine.hahas.okay.and sam and i are waiting to play a game and it's taking forever to load?hahas.anw, shall end here.gotta go to sch for ss, hist and SPA tmr.and for ppl who dunno, SPA is science practical assessment.not the spa u go to for enjoyment.heeh.(:

okies.one term's over.and i can't say i did very well.esp my english.okie.i'll start talking about the whole week from mon.okayy.on mon, i broke a test tube during bio.it wasn't my fault.really.the test tuble holder wasn't tight enough.i seem like i'm trying to push the blame.to the poor test tube holder.LOL.and i was pissed with everything.was in a bad mood.yaa.that's about all for mon i think?okie.then on tue.mrs ow gave us back our english papers.and i failed.because i didn't finish my summary.what the shit la.and i failed lit as well.and others can get so high while i fail?and he wrote tt my answer was too short.okay.nvm.shall forget about it.and improve.everyone has the possibility to do well.aas quoted from daisy again.and on wed, ms neo returned us the hist ct.and i got 18/25.it's like wow?first time can.i always usually failed hist last yr.and now it's like.okay.i must not get too complacent.if not my results will falll.yepp.and on thurs we had a math consultation with mr loh.actually we had it cuz we wanted to pon photography okay.but it helped us.yepp.and we kept laughing.hahas.then amanda almost wanted to write sth abt mr loh in his bk.like his teeth not straight?and i noticed the fingers.and all of us burst out laughing at the same time. then we felt bad for taking up mr loh's time. then it's like, we were a bit not prepared.yar.and then after that, we went to look for mrs ow.and she spoke to us bout the eng stuff.and i'm gg for eng tuition at the british council.gg for the placement test tmr. okie
i better get on to the SVA thing.yepp.we left class at 1:30.and had lunch.yar.i'll skip tt part.and josie tan made many lame jokie, like we couldnt get better than them and what crap.ya.and then at the start i saw our video.the one with me stepping on the water de.but it's nothing much la..then when our group was announced, i couldnt believe it.part of me was thinking, it's impossible, then the other part of me was thinking why we only got a silverr.but well.a silver's gd enough.enough to get me 1 ptt.and then i didn't dare to look at the video.i only saw the part when i was cleaning the leg.they played the whole thing i think?and my hand was trembling when i shook daniel yun's hand.haha.then when we took photos, i couldn't smile.cuz i was still trembling.so i ended up, with no expression?.and we got 500 bucks carrefour vouchers.and josie says we may have to split half with the sch.urgh.so what we'll end up with is 1 piece of certificate.and i saw shuai ges.(:.hahas.i'm mad. and i've inherited some of amanda's genes.someppl may noe what i'm referring to.lol.that compere was nice.and he's talll.okay.at least he's better than chee keong.[sry ck's fans].and the food was nice esp the brownie.okie.yup.tt's all.hahas.and it was worth exchanging eng remedial for SVA.hey.it's an OFFICIAL reason okay.yepp.(:.and theres guides campfire tmr.

okie.it's the end of the week once again.it's really the end.sunday.and theres sch tmr.i totally dread sch nowadays.esp. eng lessons.i know i failed english.it's like, half the summary undone?okay.shall force myself not to think about it anymore.supposed to be watching the chu yi wan yu [a bit too late huh?] now.but then i had the inspiration to blog.okay.it's not really inspiration.just a feeling.i'm crapping.yepp.like amanda, i'll have to find more sources of getting cca pts.not all our entries are being submitted for the competition.like whattheshit.we wasted all our time at chinatown.the bitch only selected GOOD ones?like that we dont' get the points?okay.and being the treasurer does not help.i would rather be treasurer of ava.sam's sis says it's slack.better than the p society.always collecting this and that.even before the first task is finished, the second task comes along.like i'm not busy enough?and i have to get ex book for the accounts.then i was telling my mum, since theres 50cents extra in the fund, can i claim the ex bk money frm there?whatever la.she has no sympathy for others.tt time amanda was sick then all she said was just.show me your mc.it's a complete contrast from mr ho.eg, sick ar, dont go dont go.rest at home.NO mention about mc at all.hahas.anw, summarise in 1 sentence.ava is much much better than p society
what else?oh yahh.on wed or stm, the whole class quarrelled with kwan.she came into class and picked up all the books on the floor.complained about dirtiness.and made sp cry.serves kwan right la.always so demanding.before sch sweep once, recess sweep once, lunch time sweep once.it's like, f her man.wabiang.lols.and ytd i slept at 2am.was doing ss summary.i was like telling myself that i had to finish doing 7 then can sleep.then i was so pissed ytd.worried about this and that.worried about failing eng, worried about my l1r5.muz meet the parent if it's above 20.
hahas.and i love stars and hearts.i've been making many.but i also gave them away.i've decided to put all the stars into a bottle.and the bottle i got was the newater one.the one the sch gave on total defence day.hahas.only have 8 stars inside it.shall get more straws from sch tmr.the auntie will be thinking, i only sold 3 cups of drink, how come 20 straws gone?hahas.
and i like playing tennis.it's nice to play.better than badminton i guess.and i always play with amanda and fel.i think we'll be playing it again tmr.and mass run has been changed to mon.for the collection of $
and i got back most of the papers.results
bio- 37/50 A2
chem- 45.5/50 A1
phys- 29/40 A2
chin- 77/100 A1
e math- 24/40 B4
a math- fail
okay.those are all i got back.and i guess i'll dread tue.
sighs.if i add up all and calculate l1r5, my mum's gotta meet the teacher.
many people have joined ava.all the sec 2s and 3s.but i guess i don't really care.
and the chu yi's wan yu is damn funny.all the zou xiu.
hahas.in sch we've been complaining about the bkshop auntie.about her longgg hair on the chin.and that she wants to see the principal because our class doesnt want to collect the files.which is like such a lame reason?and she wants to see kwan.if she tells kwan, we'll all get a big scolding again.oh yeahh, did i mention tt our class's gonna get a BIG dustbin so kwan cannot say anything more.hahas.and i heard that ms neo's getting married.yepp.shall end here
bye h.