it's time to study for chem spa!
i hope everything goes well next week!
and on a random note, i'm so in love with dbsk's proud.i know i'm slow

much has happened and i think i've kind of finally am able to let go. to not get so bothered at the nitty gritty things but look at the big picture which is the ending point and all the major stuff and all. so you will not bother me anymore and i've come to accept you as who you are. i learnt something: if you have nothing better to say, then just don't say anything. so that's what i'll do.
i've had conversations with my mum and sometimes this is how it goes when we're watching tv
me: i think this actress is pretty, don't you think so?
mum: that is because you only look at the nose or particular features. you've got to look at the big picture, the entire face
i think it sounds like something you'd read about in JLC.:O
so that is what i've been trying to do, no doubt it's hard. i think it's a lesson to be learnt, to be able to focus on the big picture instead of being bothered with all the minor stuff.not just in looking if someone is pretty but in other aspects of life as well.these days, i've seen people in a new light, as if they've changed their looks (well not so exaggerated but to some extent), and i've discovered more pretty people, and of course, not-so-pretty ones. i've come to notice more features of the face that i like other than the nose-.-. doesn't that sound contradictory?
one week after, life still goes on.
i watched october sky during gp today and it was really inspiring. i teared towards the end because the teacher's wish or hope for her students finally came to fruition and the worst thing is, she passed away. i didnt really get why we watched it, like was it related to science or was it to motivate us.
i think i'm able to focus more during lectures because of the ginko tablets my mum bought.:D i simply love my mum! she bought this very cute turtle thing which is sort of a handphone holder, and it's so cute(: haha and it's not just because she buys things for me, but the fact that she makes an effort to talk to me everyday even though both she and i are busy.:D
on a random note, i saw a rainbow today(:
and after being random, i forget what i want to say.
it's now time to post pictures of cute guy a.k.a 'zi cong'!
everyone says he's not shuai!
but he has deep set eyes, a sharp nose, and a nice general face! there i go again, being superficial and looking only at the minor features. but i think overall, he looks good:D

zi cong! aka bosco wong!


i started doing sudoku again this week. i did one on the bus to school every day for the past 2 days. and on another random note, i think twins are really cool. imagine the things you can do with your twin:D

happiness turned to relief, which gradually evolved into disapointment and lastly sadness.
i got my first ever B in a very major examination
but whatever it is, i really am grateful for all the help i received in helping me get a B nonetheless.
my mum bought dewberry for me to reward me for getting a b, but that is not the point, really.
no one can understand my feelings about getting a b.
maybe you've gotten a b and you're thinking, what the hell are you ranting about since you got a b. just shut up and accept it. people who got a b last year in sa thanked their lucky stars but here you are complaining and lamenting. but i'd say, why do i have to be content about getting a b. is it very good? no. it isn't. it isn't the best grade i can ever get. maybe i really am a perfectionist in this sense that i don't feel any happiness in getting a b say for the exception that i felt relieved that i didnt get a C.
life has been good, if you don't factor in the work factor, and my fluctuating moods

i think i have a horrible temper.
i can be smiling and laughing one moment and then i'd get all quiet another.

thinking too much
being too sensitive

i think i've been a very bad friend to my friends.
i'm unable to express my true thoughts and feelings to you properly because i always feel guilty and angry at myself for thinking this way.
i don't know why i've been feeling this way. maybe i do know the reason but i probably don't want to face it.
i suddenly remember a quote from JLC
'people who are weak will sway in the wind' something about having no roots, or 'heimongmong'.i don't remember them anymore.maybe i've become 'hulihudu' and i can't see things clearly anymore

i don't want to say anymore.
the more i say, the more i offend people
when i say things when i mean it, i am serious and i don't say it jokingly and i have a serious tone.
and when i don't mean things, i'm just joking and it is not meant to be taken seriously. please dont take what i say under these circumstances seriously, please
i hope people don't get offended and distinguish what i mean from what i don't mean.
that is all