i'm leaving on a plane, NOT
right now, i'm feeling the anxiety of leaving for OCIP tomorrow
crossing borders, touching lives:D
i'm apprehensive, but yet anticipating what'll happen
it's kind of a very exciting feeling.
and i'm in a very good mood now
ocip rehearsals have been fun.
i think it was quite funny when the whole team hummed chori chori when the cd player broke down:/
went out for class outing(dinner) at town last night.and we forgot to take a photo at the s11 sign:0
someone updated blog.(:

now the emo stuff D:
really, i feel that we should be quick to judge people.
i don't quite know how to phrase this
my first impressions are really accurate
and i'm intent on believing it.

it hurts to know those you thought were your friends actually aren't when you ask them for favours. really.

this cannot go on
i must not forget the resolution i set to myself when the holidays began
i just realised this is a nice song when i watched high school musical 2(:

Gotta Go My Own Way
Gabriella
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the planis always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in thisworld someday
But at least for nowI gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes upand I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it allslowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I'vegotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in thisworld someday
But at least for nowI gotta go my own away
Troy
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
Gabriella
What about trust?
Troy
you know I never wanted to hurt you
Gabriella
and what about me?
Troy
What am I supposed to do?
Gabriella
I gotta leave but I'll miss you
Troy
I'll miss you
Gabriella
soI've got to move on and be who I am
Troy
Why do you have to go?
Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
Troy:
I'm trying to understand
Gabriella
We might find our place in this world someday
but at least for now
Troy
I want you to stay
Gabriella
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
Troy
What about us?
Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
Troy
I'm trying to understand
Gabriella
We might find our place in thisworld someday
but at least for nowI gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away

hoho quick update:
this week i:
1. went for training and got so tired with all my muscles aching but felt it was worth all the while because since i've been eating so much i should exercise and burn off fats
2. met the 3(xh j f) of them for my belated birthday celebration and enjoyed myself even though i was tired from training.(: and received my birthday present from them which i like very much
3. was supposed to meet 07A01 for gathering, but then i didnt feel well, wanxuan!so i didnt go in the end
4. settled the printing of the ocip team tees and felt so accomplished and yet pressurised at the same time:D
5. got nothing done, studies wise with the exception of reading notes and doing maths which i ended up feeling discouraged all over.
6. went to cut my hair but ended up rebonding my hair instead because that was what the stylist suggested to put an end to all my complaints of ugly fringe, messy hair and what nots.and thinking i look very weird, trying to avoid seeing people i know in school and hiding from ...
7. experienced a very scary fight. not going to say anything here
8. saw jay and jay saw me too. this is a good memory and i will always remember the look pro had.that dazed look which he is so infamous for.i didnt mean to stalk! okay well i meant to find but i didnt expect to see, really. but i guess, this would, really really be the last
9. went for cip at east coast which was quite fun
10. went for open house, and nothing much to talk about there.
i am going to:
1. fall sick with a sore throat, cough and aching body
2. hit the books soon
3. set off for curry-moon soon!
4. watch HSM2!
5. exercise and burn off excess fats!
6. try not to get addicted to idol dramas
7. watch why why love which debuts on channel 56 tmr!
8. borrow more books from the library. i love good books
9. help my mum out with housework. It can burn off fats
10. reflect more on my actions and think of consequences
That’s all for now:D


my face looks so round!0:

empty train

ice cream!! fondue!:D

from sujun!

from my dear AFC-ian sally

meibao!

i look weird in the middle. :/
i didnt take a very short time to update this:O

'i think tt it's not difficult to be happy..it's just a matter of your mindset and outlook on life. ((:'
quited from angela's blog.
i find this quite true:D

it's the time to blog about what happened yesterday and more proper thank yous to my dear friends!
amanda!; hey this is in reply to your card! haha i'm honoured that you spent my birthday with me! haha and yes, i'm really glad that we've remained close this year.thanks so much for the FIR album, i'll lend you the next time i see you!:Di'll finish replying your letter soon(:
angela!; haha hey i'm glad that we met up yesterday! and we had so much fun! esp the time at toys r us! and thanks so much for the play! calvin and zun!! and cuteguy tooooo!
meibao!; hello i don't think you'll read my blog, but still i have to thank you! i really opened on the 10th nov ! and yes, i like jay's album a lot alot! love!
sheeeep!; hello haha you know, when i opened the present, i only saw the files. and it was only at night when i saw the letter that you typed. i'm really touched by what you wrote and i can't believe you actually remembered what happened in sec 2! thanks so much!(:
michelle; thanks for the cake that you and huimin bought! :D it's nice, really.(:
tingyu; thanks so much for the card! i like it alot and i know you put in much effort drawing the people on it! and it's nice somemore! and u're so pro at drawing cows! i think i love cows now!XD
i think i shall stop now):
abit abrupt but er..
damn those people are still not replying.
i just can't stand it when i've to do something and it's within a tight deadline. GRRRRRR. and i'm pissed

thanks to the many people: amanda, angela, chongping, felicia, jiayen, joanne, kahhwee, kinshen, mabel, melissa, michelle, oggy, seowli, shihao, ship, shunli, sujun, tania, tingyu, waisum, wenyu, xuehui, yehan, zena.and my dearest family!:D and some i think i left out

went out today with jx and angela!

thanks so much for the presents!:D i really appreciate it:D

i was the second to arrive and we hugged each other when we met! it was quite a weird reaction! then jx arrived shortly after:D

it was really really fun!:D

more about that soon-ish because i want to watch concert now(:

and calvin and wuzun are better than dadong!

but then again, everyone has different tastes right, angela and jx!

sam is in a good good good good mood today ehzxzxzxzx

before i forget!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN LOVE

same birthday as me ehzxzxzxz!:D

once again, it's time to blog before i get my daily dose of romantic princess
went to school today for pw. the last, final part of pw- the handing up of gpf. i was quite surprised that actually, we didn't have much.like you know, after working on sth for 9 months, you'd expect something more. but all we had individually was PI, EoM and I&R. and for group, there was gpp. it seemed so little. but yea. i felt a sense of dread as i handed in my parts.
BYEBYE PW! I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN!
we then did a survey which was a loonnggg one. i was practically writing long sentences for every question because they kept asking why why why.:/ i was quite caught in a dilemma for that survey. i received my first birthday present from ship! haven't opened it yet cause she said to open on the day itself!
then we went for lunch- oggy, mabel, jiayi and michelle. haha we went to tpy for lunch even though we didnt eat good food. just ate at koufu. gah. i want to go out to eat good food one day! then i'll probably drag oggy along then we can eat our favourite cake from bengawan solo.:D or drag jx then we can eat donuts, which is what we're doing this sat!((:
then there was training. i went for training with a sense of dread cause we hadn't trained for a long while! and it turned out to be not so bad. we ran 8 rounds around the field and played game. it was quite okay. but i felt tired. i guess my legs have grown lazy. but it's alright! with more trainings i'll feel better and more energised! and i can exercise and burn off fats too!((:
we gave tingyu her birthday present today- the board we made. and i'm glad that she likes it:D
today ting asked me if i missed ___. of course i do.D:
when i reached home, i felt so sick. still i'm feeling sick. i hope i'll feel better tmr! going to sleep early tonight. probably sleeping is the best remedy because i'm not taking any panadol:D
i was laughing so hard at the video of eugene speaking with the indian accent! my brother saw it and laughed too because he knows the script quite well, practicing the skit with me and listening to me speak in preparation for op.lol
okay i shall end here then i can watch finish earlier and sleep earlier too(: back to cute guy!

cute guy!
ive been watching 公主小妹 and i think it's very nice!
there's zun! and calvin too!!!
oh dear, i'm sounding like some crazy fan of theirs! :p

while waiting for videos to load, i shall blog a little.
these 2days have been ocip, ocip, and romantic princess!!
well it's quite fun, but tiring. i've got to dance! and imagine that, chinese cultural dance! well people may say that my normal actions are gentle. but when i dance, i feel like a clumsy elephant! as quoted, i have only half a dancing cell in me.XD
during the first rehearsal, we totally screwed up and we couldnt even follow the song.
so that embarrassment made me more motivated to practice,and thankfully, the rehearsal today was much better :D
packed logistics today. and i was appalled at the stuff people donated. imagine a necklace! hahaha. and i got a mosquito bite on my neck. probably it was the dust! haha :D
and even though that person was there, i didn't get to catch a glimpse.
enough ramblings for now. back to videos!((:

so it seems, i'm in a good mood today, and it's night time. so expect a light hearted entry today(:
the OP was over today. i guess, it was my best effort among all the practices. so i can say that i've not let myself down and i've given in my all? but the q&a was really screwed. grrrr. but in the least, it's over finally. all the late nights, practices in front of the mirror was not in vain. we still have i&r and it'll all be over. and that's thinking about it optimistically. and i just rmbed! satisfication! just now the 10 of us were really going mad just before the assessors arrived. we used an arrow to shoot zhiyang, and he died. HAHA. and speaking with the indian accent!
for those who havent had op yet, all the best! :D
yesterday was my lucky day. i found someone's photo album and there were so many photos of jay. including those of him un-glam. i showed sujun some. but the rest..hmm.secret
i've been reflecting on my actions the past year. i guess, it really seems i still am the person i was last year. i guess, the chinese saying is right, jiang shan yi gai, ben xing nan yi. in other words. a leopard never changes its spots. the original character will never change. it'll only be an amplification of some of the traits. and that, is the conclusion i've come to.meanwhile. i'll be working on improving myself to become a better person. or so i hope
i just deleted a huge chunk of stuff i'd typed. i'd decided not to post it anymore because it might offend some people. the rest of these is going somewhere else.
this past week has been spent doing op, i&r.and nothing else.i havent been doing anything productive.so much for saying that i'm striving to score for BT1 next year.i've been reading, yes. my previous past time. i finished the books i borrowed already and i'm going to borrow more soon(:
there're so many more birthdays coming up (in order): ship, tingyu, seowli, mine, steph, adelyn, huimin, jx
happy birthday in advance!(:
oops. i keep forgetting to mention - i've been sweeping the floor and i've found, lots of long hair (mine) on the floor! i have stopped eating salty food already, but why am i sill having excessive hair loss!
and because of distractions, i'm unable to blog a proper entry. so , a more serious one next time