sorry about the emo posts lately. i wonder why i've been feeling like this of late.perhaps its due to having more time to waste, to pick and choose, to find faults in people and everything there is.and maybe those are the causes of my displeasure or resentment, or maybe i'm just giving excuses for my behaviour.why do i always get called 'silly', 'stupid'?and the sad thing is that i don't find myself being any of those.

i've been feeling kind of tired of late. worked ot until 12 on thurs and 3am on fri, which has left me feeling exhausted even till today!i never imagined i'd have the ability to stay up till 6 without sleeping, so it's kind of an achievement!(: but not one i'd like to repeat though. i think i was in a bad mood halfway. aish. work has left me with a terrible back ache that i've difficulty sitting and standingD:i hope it gets well soon! last week i sat on a convertible for the first time ever(:it was quite fun!:D but i ended up with messy hair though-.-
i woke at 1030 this morning(:hahaha the outcome of not setting the alarm. it feels good to wake naturally:D this would be my most relaxing new year in a long long time! with no holiday homework to be completed or whatsoever. so i just spent my time eating, watching tv and all.i've been listening to the bolero single too, which is really good((:
don't you find chinese new year kind of losing the meaning. you see the people you see once a year, sit there doing nothing, nothing to say, nothing to do but entertain yourself with your phone. and afterall, it takes two hands to clap and both parties have a part in making conversation?
hmm i've been thinking about some stuff these days, and i've decided that i'll be strong and i'll attempt to not be bothered by it. afterall, it's not something that i can change so i'll try to live with it from now on.O:
listen to the nice song(:

忘れないで - 東方神起

This week has been quite an enjoyable week(: Doing the same stuff, getting used to it, some familiarity, so I feel less stressed. Aish, I never realised how mean people can be. But yet I'm not sure of my thoughts and whether they're true or not. But i'll make my conclusion soon. And I really wonder what it'll be. Some people are not as simple as I wish to think they are.O:
I've almost finished watching On Air. I think it's a damn nice show hahaha. On the contrary lan qiu huo is not as good. I find that the plot is still not really developed considering the fact that its already going to end soon but yet I still don't get the plot.-.-
I'm glad I didn't gain any weight, considering that I had honey milk tea two days in a row hahaha(: But this cannot go on! Time to exercise and burn off fats!
Meeting jx tmr(:

so here we are in 2009, and i guess the transition from 08 to 09 is different from most years. without having to worry about school or sitting down at my table to study. it feels carefree yet there's still something nagging at me at the back of my head.it feels as if the future is so uncertain and bleak. but there shall be no emo stuff in this post.
i've been living the life that i've wanted to live for the past few weeks.at least on weekends. i get to wake up at whatever time i want, read books, waste time, to sum it all with one word-SLACK.haha don't i sound so lazy. the wonders of not having to study. it's kind of a liberation, but better not say too much first.
and on a lighter note, i've received my payslip today(: hahaha my first ever pay, so exciting:D so many things i want to do with it.i think the chinese mirotic is nice, like their pronunciation has improved quite a bit since the last time they sang chinese((:
and work, has been alright.except that i'm puzzled by some stuff. why do things have to be so ambiguous. why can't they be 'straightforward' like what mdm leong always says? but i suppose life isn't a math question. i suppose i've to spend more time observing people's actions and behaviour.
i'm looking forward to meet-ups((: