i've finally come to blog, at the request of jx since i didn't get to talk to you! i've been hesitant to blog, partly because i felt there was nothing much to say about myself rotting at home, or time could be spent watching my dramas(:
so here goes!
this week i
1. watched lots of tv, i watched everything there was on tv that appealed to me, including shows that i've watched before, like dicey business, and new dramas too:D
2.baked cookies which turned out very not nice. but i spent 4 hours on it when it was supposed to be just 35 mins in total!
3.went to work for the first time ever in my life. i went there feeling quite afraid, but it turned out quite ok, because i had to sort files. whoa i've never seen so many files ever in my life. i think there were at least 10,000 files in the compactus thing which is a cool but scary thing since it can squash people up if they don't move away. but the only thing is, i worry i'm not strong enough for the job since i've to carry many files albeit not for very long. i dropped a few today. and after just one day i'm already itching all over. but its okay. i'll get used to it, eventually. and i think the people there are quite nice(: it isn't hardcore, yet it isnt so slack.
4. watched dbsk! every day, day by day, my <3 for them grows. seeing how young they are and being so funny and all. but i felt quite sad for changmin when the fans sweared at him. not fans actually but anti-fans.
5. got to know something from steph(: that is secret:D
6. have been trying not to worry about the As and enjoy life
7. went for class chalet and didn't sleep alot (around 30-45 mins) and went home and dozed off quite immediately. it was fun(: playing saboteur was fun, and mahjong too! i think i'm sian of seeing the mahjong tiles already. i saw someone i recognised on the bus home :O
8. have a new favourite song! dbsk's 'don't cry my lover'. i think it's a very touching song and somewhat empowering at the end. i don't know if that is the correct word to use, but that is what i felt listening to it towards the end.
9. have been reading! i have no idea why i always start reading at 10 plus and refuse to put down the book at 11 which is supposedly my bedtime and end up sleeping at 12 or 1130. i've to change this
10. feel a sense of emptiness. i wonder if it's because of a lack of security, that not seeing my friends means they are not there. i know it's quite silly to think this way but i just do. it's weird isn't it. this insecurity has to go
Don't cry my lover
Am I finally alright now?
This is what they ask me,I look so pained, my tears seep through my two hands.
When the tears that blind my eyes fall, I can see you clearly,My love, don't cry.
I don't know if I should take you away with me.
You still hold on to so many memories.
*chorus*I close my eyes for a moment, I still love you so. I should give up, but I can't let you go.You taught me how to love. Now, how can I forget you?
Again, I'm drunk today. I call you but you don't pick up.
Again, I cry.What did we say?
Still those tedious words.
I can't even say the words 'I'm sorry'.
What I have become, I cannot grasp the dream that is now distant.
The love that you have been waiting for, I cannot have.
The promise that we made, to shed our tears together...
I can see them now.
[cartoongirl7@ Soompi: She had took this translation from Hero Baidu which is Chinese and translated it to English]
Take out with full credits.
Translated by : cartoongirl7@Soompi + az1989 @LJ for sharing
