Always Keep the Faith

what total burnout.
for the first time ever in my life as a student, i felt like giving up in an exam. had chem on mon, bio and econs on tues and math on wed. monday night tuesday was the worst day ever. on monday, i went home not knowing how tp split my time betweeen bio and econs. but thankfully, what i memorized was tested, so i got lucky there. and the point that i felt so mentally drained was halfway through the bio paper. i was at the middle part and there was still so much to go i felt that i couldn't go on.today, i felt the same way. the questions they set were so tough so again, i felt that i didn't have the energy to carry on. at question 4 i already started panicking.i teared when i went home thinking about my block tests, that i would have nothing to show for what i'd done during the holidays. it's true that my focus is the As. but doing well in these tests would be an indication of how well you'd do in the actual As. if you keep failing these tests, do you think you would have the confidence or do you even think you can improve overnight and get the As that everyone desires? i'd think the answer is an obvious no. that is what has been discouraging me so much and nagging at me when i'd done badly in tests and all. but i'm really glad for having such great friends who'd take time out of studying to write me notes to motivate me. and i am really motivated by those notes.i get so motivated to study so hard but the disappointment is so great when i sit in the hall and find that i can't do those questions. i feel like all my preparation had all gone to waste. on a lighter note, my very smart aunt got very good results in the As and i'm very motivated to score as well as her! she passed me all her notes so i better get down to reading and filling my brain with stuff that can score me my As instead of bearing grudges against petty stuff that happen daily.
since many has asked about how my new house is. i think it's a much better and conducive environment from the old house. and it's also quiet and cool. i don't need to turn on the fan unless i really need to. but sometimes, sitting in my room for the entire day studying, like what i'd done the entire week, i feel like time passes so fast. everytime i look at my watch, one hour has passed, another hour has passed. and starting work at 8 or 9, and soon the day ends with me not doing much.the journey home has been fine(: and i this week i absent-mindedly left my ez link card in the hall after chem. and many people say i worry for the wrong reasons, which is absolutely true-.-but i found it in the end at the GO.
tomorrow i shall spend my time productively.and no, i won't be mugging. not so soon of course.:D
HAHA JX! i really wish that we spent more time rotting during the 06 holidays.it's always like that. during holidays i dont play enough and then when it's time for real work i think i didnt play enough during the holidays. and yes, you can come to woodlands library some day and we can study! you can teach me DE which i have zero idea as to how to do.D: lend me JLC soon(: i feel alot for the book too, just like i do for EOTP as we're still quoting to each other now:D
things have gotten better, on the part of ehem ehem.