You're just someone I used to know

That feeling when someone you used to know has moved on without you in their lives.

And the fact that they appear happier than they were when in your presence never ever feels good.

But then, we never really know, do we? People choose to portray what they want to. And I, no longer privy to their deepest thoughts can only know what they want us to know.

I really resent the fact that everyone has to move on. That someone I used to know so well is now a stranger to me. I hate to be the only one feeling this way, thinking about the what-ifs and what would have been while the other party feels like they're better off without me in their lives. The thing I resent the most is that I'm erased out of their lives like I never made a mark on their porcelain perfect lives.

Yet, if I claim that they would match so well in my life, why am I still living normally? I guess it's just the familiarity and the closeness I miss so much. Yet it's not meant to be. I know that someday, I will realise the reasons why but for now I really can't comprehend the reasons behind the broken friendships that I once thought would last for a long long time.

Still, I continue to trust and put my faith in God's hands because God will never forsake me and some day when I find the reasons behind these, I know I will be so thankful for the trust I had in His plans.

Favourite cake

Does anyone have a favourite cake? I know all I talk about is food and the occasional drabble sometimes, but I really love having nice food! Sometimes when I anticipate that I'd have something more unique, my bubble is totally burst when someone suggests food court. Like !$^*))@%&(&%$#. Not that I always want to have expensive food or anything, I do eat at food courts, coffee shops and hawker centres during my lunch time and I enjoy hawker fare like yong tau foo, dumpling noodles and all.. But my point is that if someone is going to suggest food republic or something, I rather eat something nicer by paying a little more.

So here's my favourite cake, or just one of my favourites, or just another in my whole long list of favourites. Hahaha. The starbuck's Chocolate peanut butter stack! What more can I ask for? All my favourites in a cake. But I really do need to state that I cannot finish one entire slice on my own! CVD, Diabetes and HTN will all come looking for me if I do finish one whole slice. Meant to be shared among two or more people. Look at the thick layer of caramel. This is also my grandma's favourite. She actually told me to learn how to make. But how, I cannot find any recipe for it. With so many different layers of. chocolate and peanut butter,  I doubt it'd be any easy work so I'm much better off buying one slice from Starbucks. Better than baking one entire cake and having to try very hard to desperately finish the cake.

Next up, two cakes I tried recently at Pique Nique because my Mum had a one-for-one voucher!

Red velvet cake. First time trying a red velvet cake! I know this is so random, but  the powder(??) or rather, cake crumbs at the top always remind me of a golf course, though it's not green at all. No idea why. Really pretty looking, but sadly was a little too dry for our liking. I liked the cream cheese though! Better shared. I always think it's good to share desserts, then you get to try a bit of everything, right?

Chocolate caramel cake! Wow this was really really good. Don't be fooled by its plain and ordinary brown looking exterior, it's full of goodness inside. Okay I know this sounds like some tagline out of an advertisement, but really! Topped with a chocolate shortbread and layer of ganache, beneath lay a layer of salted caramel (which I tried for the very first time) and mini cubes of chocolatey things (really have to use 'things' because I have no idea what they were) and the last layer which was chocolate mousse. But as always, I wouldn't be able to finish this on my own. Too much of something good can become bad as well. Reminds me of a quote from Joy Luck club about Lena and her ice cream. 'I wondered why eating so much ice cream made me feel so terrible', something like that. 

Pot of Earl Grey tea which we ordered as well. We were pretending to have high tea when it was already six in the evening. Hahaha. It was nice having a cup of warm tea after having the cakes. 

Sometimes when life gets too routine, I can't help but fall into the trap of thinking that everyone with a certain condition behaves/thinks the same way. But this is so untrue. No two people are ever the same, so how can I treat them all the same? Which is why I admire people who can remain dedicated in their job even after 20 years. Hence I constantly remind myself that 'Everyone has a story.' Everyone is a dearly loved son/daughter/father/mother, however they might behave. I believe by having constant reminders, this will become a habit in time to come. And while I once mentioned that one should never compare oneself with others, I believe that everyone should strive to be a better person than they were the day before. And that is how we improve.

Wonderful weekends

In my imagination, weekends were meant to be spent looking for nice cafes, trying out food at never-been-to restaurants. Basically nothing significant but just enjoyable so that we face the next week refreshed and ready to take on the coming week.

So I finally got to go to Strictly Pancakes. I've been looking at their menu since like forever. Rather accessible and it was within walking distance from Dhoby Ghaut MRT station. It was already rather crowded when we arrived at about 12. I think we got the last seats, so I guess we were quite lucky and didn't need to wait. 

Maple syrup and butter. They had quite a few choices of butter. Su xian and I both chose garlic and herb butter. I liked the maple syrup glass which was designed to slant sideways. I really really love pancakes. I don't really like carbohydrates in general, like rice or noodles, but give me pancakes and waffles anytime! And I don't even need them garnished with any special sauce or cooked in any special way. Just pancakes or waffles drizzled with honey or maple syrup would make me a happy girl. 

So here's my double stack, basically just two pancakes looking so pathetic. Didn't want to add sides like eggs or sausages because Su xian suggested having the sweet pancakes as a dessert to be shared. And the waitress taking our orders actually looked a little shocked that we wanted to order three 'sets' for just two of us. It came with just the two pancakes on the huge plate so I hurriedly placed the butter and maple syrup on the plate to make it look less pathetic hahaha. The pancakes were really fluffy and thick, unlike the ones we make at home. And these pancakes tasted less sweet as well, if you get what I mean. Pancakes usually taste a little sweet, right? And I actually finished the maple syrup, while Su xian finished her butter. 

Su xian's Chicken a la king. She says it tasted good! I think I tasted the chicken which was chicken fillet. So it wasn't tough or dry like the chicken breast. 

And here! The dessert pancake I've been wanting to try: What a spread! A mixture of all my favourites. Peanut butter pancakes with nutella spread and ice cream! And the kinder bueno is a bonus. Hahaha. I actually wanted to order just this and Su xian insisted that this was a dessert. And when they served this after we finished our first 'set', the girls at the next table looked at us like we were gluttons. There they were at their tables complaining that they couldn't finish their own set of pancakes and here we were, starting on our dessert. But they did admit that this looked really good. And I loved this so much, really. I'm going to order this again if I ever visit once more. And this time, it will be my main course. Though the peanut butter taste was not really strong, it tasted good with all my favourite flavours mixed altogether. 

Had a really satisfying meal and as usual, I didn't know how full I was until moments after I finished my meal, which meant that I actually over-ate again. But I let it pass then because it's my favourite food of all time. Shall look for more places that serve pancakes! Please don't tell me Macdonald's Hotcakes, though I used to like those too, but I've since stopped having Macdonalds because of articles I read about how unhealthy they are and all so..