tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57073342011-11-07T14:34:34.514+08:00Love In The IceSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.comBlogger3101100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-42905291885080844462011-11-07T14:19:00.002+08:002011-11-07T14:34:34.547+08:00You know that feeling when people treat you as an afterthought. Like 用完就丢. I wonder why I have such friends.So full of resentment today. I attribute it to stress. tataSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-57917466947193463202011-11-07T13:45:00.002+08:002011-11-07T13:51:51.894+08:00I absolutely hate these idiots who assume so much and think that they know everything about me. You freaking don't, so stop ranting in my face. It gets annoying. You think you are trying to help me but the ranting just annoys me to the max. So no, you. are. not. helping. at. all. Thanks, but no thanks. You don't even know how I feel. I have enough on my plate. I don't need to be the outlet for SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-83397781275531385452011-11-07T12:21:00.001+08:002011-11-07T12:21:21.997+08:00가지마..SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-64757452404369637682011-09-25T22:24:00.001+08:002011-09-25T22:25:49.327+08:00I think, disappointments only come with expectation. So only if I don't expect so much, maybe I wouldn't be that disappointed. SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-48925207207906867882011-09-20T22:55:00.000+08:002011-09-20T22:56:03.750+08:00In the throes of our own loss, grief is an expression of the love we have for another person. To put it another way, only those who first love can ever truly grieve. This is a bittersweet truth that we sometimes forget.SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-73586423885349098182011-08-29T22:17:00.001+08:002011-08-29T22:18:08.986+08:00Just changed my blog title to something totally irrelevant. But I like it like that. My favourit-est song ever:DSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-12766978962817754352011-08-20T00:15:00.001+08:002011-08-20T00:16:32.513+08:00I find it so amazing!These few phrases keep coming back to me, I understand how that it's a message, telling me what I should do.:)SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-86905983072112359622011-08-05T22:17:00.003+08:002011-08-05T22:20:43.943+08:00No, we cannot imagine all of the wonderful things that God has planned for our future, but one thing that we may count on is that the best is yet to come! "FOR I KNOW THETHOUGHTS THAT I THINK TOWARD YOU," SAYS THE LORD, "THOUGHTS OF PEACE AND NOT OF EVIL, TO GIVE YOU A FUTURE AND A HOPE. " ( JEREMIAH 29:11 ) Therefore "THERE IS HOPE IN YOUR FUTURE," SAYS THE LORD! ( JEREMIAH 31:17 )From God's SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-85838410788854303972011-07-21T20:04:00.002+08:002011-07-21T20:15:12.076+08:00So you tell yourself that both of you were never equal to begin with, and it comes as no surprise when you lose out. Thank you my dear Fanqin for consoling me, and giving me strength. And of course, I cannot forget God, who gives me strength as well. SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-38001437661126433812011-07-05T21:18:00.002+08:002011-07-05T21:36:52.125+08:00do you know that feeling of saying goodbye, and not knowing when you will ever meet the other party again? I, for one, really dislike that feeling. Because it's like I can't say 'let's meet soon' or 'see you again', because I know for sure I wouldn't take the initiative to ask the other person out, or I won't see them again. Though I actually smile when I say bye to them, deep down, i feel so sadSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-89129676641720983392011-05-10T21:54:00.000+08:002011-05-10T21:55:12.677+08:00bumming aroundSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-29379230777301674442011-04-02T21:54:00.001+08:002011-04-02T22:01:37.710+08:00we're all humans afterall. i can't expect perfectionSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-9304719888999389122011-02-16T20:17:00.000+08:002011-02-16T20:18:18.814+08:00okay i'm going to revive this place soon:D keep a lookout!:DSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-34516453397939685932010-04-03T20:16:00.002+08:002010-04-03T20:19:28.462+08:00Amanda commented that i haven't been blogging often. and that's because i've been keeping all my thoughts in my nice and cute diary:Dwell, I guess its hard to find someone who can scarifice everything for another person, and not ask for anything in return. no one is a saint.and such fairytales only happen in stories.i dont know what is the point of that also.i just know that i'm eagerly waiting SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-37981858128633692862009-11-26T18:34:00.003+08:002009-11-26T18:40:44.963+08:00ahh sam, please have the sense of urgency to study! have the urgency to study like the urgency you have when playing bejeweled please! stop playing bejeweled!the finals have been bad. i dont wish to think anymore.i have no idea why my fruits in country story are rotten when i harvest them immediately.ahh sam 2 more to go!actually i'm not happy.SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-4130282649196244282009-11-25T18:52:00.001+08:002009-11-25T18:52:43.964+08:00sometimes you look at others and think 'why can't you be like them?'SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-56677853961637308872009-09-21T17:55:00.002+08:002009-09-21T18:13:27.233+08:00for once in a very long time, i shall start complaining here since no one likes to hear me complain about this and that.oh well its recess week now. but its no recess. don't be fooled by the name. but yes i get to wake up late and laze in bed just a little more than usual school days.(:7 days to cover the 4 modules that i have midterms for.getting stressed more and more as i read my chem notes. SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-59807954956182414432009-09-12T00:55:00.001+08:002009-09-12T00:56:50.113+08:00i am so drained. i should exercise some self control from now onSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-78302153930478770532009-09-07T19:58:00.000+08:002009-09-07T20:00:24.100+08:00"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeramiah 29:11i felt so much better after remembering this phrase(:SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-57299400524202892532009-07-09T15:16:00.004+08:002011-08-22T00:42:22.193+08:00hmm, life has been good. though i've been spending time at home doing nothing. somehow, when you've got more time, you start to think and your mind starts to wander. i don't like that feeling so i'm going to try to stop those thoughts.
okay so i'm going to the science faculty in NUS. i don't know if it's the best decision but it's something i like, so all the best to me then. not really looking SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-60327006075360092402009-04-26T19:22:00.004+08:002011-08-22T00:41:41.699+08:00i realised i haven't blogged for a long time.
hmmm i just read sujun's blog and got an inspiration because it's so reflective, i wonder if i can be like this too.
reflecting on life these days, it seems like i do quite a bit of things but i find that the meaning isn't really that much. all i do is work, give tuition, and go out with friends on weekends. and the purpose? earning money, keeping in SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-16478809924649429082009-02-18T21:00:00.002+08:002009-02-18T21:15:31.195+08:00i've been feeling kind of afraid these few days. sometimes i wish to get this done and over with, but yet, i'm afraif of knowing the results. and yes, i'm thinking of the As again. i thought i'd be able to not think about it until 2 weeks later, but i can't forget it aish:/thoughts of my world collapsing keep appearing in my mind. it feels as if my world could end or come crashing down.i don't SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-46786143107068922682009-01-29T21:19:00.002+08:002009-01-29T21:48:57.974+08:00sorry about the emo posts lately. i wonder why i've been feeling like this of late.perhaps its due to having more time to waste, to pick and choose, to find faults in people and everything there is.and maybe those are the causes of my displeasure or resentment, or maybe i'm just giving excuses for my behaviour.why do i always get called 'silly', 'stupid'?and the sad thing is that i don't find SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-63391107974855898392009-01-26T20:27:00.004+08:002009-01-26T21:44:41.431+08:00i've been feeling kind of tired of late. worked ot until 12 on thurs and 3am on fri, which has left me feeling exhausted even till today!i never imagined i'd have the ability to stay up till 6 without sleeping, so it's kind of an achievement!(: but not one i'd like to repeat though. i think i was in a bad mood halfway. aish. work has left me with a terrible back ache that i've difficulty sitting SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-36246101602911738522009-01-17T21:48:00.002+08:002009-01-17T22:04:44.972+08:00this week has been quite an enjoyable week(: doing the same stuff, getting used to it, some familiarity, so i feel less stressed. Aish, i never realised how mean people can be. but yet i'm not sure of my thoughts and whether they're true or not. but i'll make my conclusion soon. and i really wonder what it'll be. some people are not as simple as i wish to think they are.O:i've almost finished SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-90928987247692287392009-01-12T22:22:00.002+08:002009-01-12T23:05:19.040+08:00so here we are in 2009, and i guess the transition from 08 to 09 is different from most years. without having to worry about school or sitting down at my table to study. it feels carefree yet there's still something nagging at me at the back of my head.it feels as if the future is so uncertain and bleak. but there shall be no emo stuff in this post.i've been living the life that i've wanted to SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-55135659325409159382008-12-26T21:53:00.002+08:002008-12-26T23:46:24.297+08:00the year is coming to an end, and i've been thinking that i'd gone through the year doing nothing much (read: nothing meaningful or impactful, lived life aimlessly), so i'd decided to list all the eventful stuff or memorable stuff this year, some quite crappish but those events have helped to brighten up my day or made me smile:D1: mop, broom, toiletscrub-head (sounds very crappish but the jokes SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-23882215464265134732008-12-20T17:52:00.005+08:002008-12-20T19:19:46.719+08:00hm after using the previous skin for almost two years, i've finally changed it to one which looks more 'sophisticate'. not that the previous one wasn't nice. as i was changing and doing the html and stuff, i was editing the links and i realised that there were many links which have become outdated. and i'd let them remain there for so long-.-so well, now with the new skin, no one can read my SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-69562896610231493772008-12-10T21:38:00.002+08:002008-12-10T21:47:43.977+08:00i remembered something funny i wanted to blog about. it's something that happened at class chalet at the arcade.steph, sujun, jiayen and i witnessed people stealing at the arcade, can you believe it. the staff at the arcade was helping him, and it was using this machine which can grab some food, by putting the food near the 'exit' of the candy machine. then when the machine grabbed the packet ofSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-44825417280308341732008-12-04T22:55:00.002+08:002008-12-04T23:08:22.299+08:00As we grow older, we begin to define many things. in primary school, classmates were friends, and friends were classmates.both were interchangeable, at least to me. then in secondary school and jc, classmates did not necessarily mean friends. sometimes when i think back at how innocent and naive we were, i wish we could all go back to those times when we had no defences(in a sense), but yet it's SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-3917494882630423992008-11-28T22:34:00.002+08:002008-11-28T23:01:51.157+08:00i've finally come to blog, at the request of jx since i didn't get to talk to you! i've been hesitant to blog, partly because i felt there was nothing much to say about myself rotting at home, or time could be spent watching my dramas(:so here goes!this week i1. watched lots of tv, i watched everything there was on tv that appealed to me, including shows that i've watched before, like dicey SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-5842697493330062082008-10-09T18:15:00.001+08:002008-10-09T18:17:35.545+08:00i think i can watch mirotic forever and not get sick of it:D not a piontae, but the song, and coupled with the dance steps, just completes the entire picture!SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-69414114543264942302008-10-09T16:21:00.004+08:002008-10-09T16:51:09.786+08:00i know i said i wouldn't come online until 20th Nov but i'm going to blog one last entry before!farewell assembly was today, and as i expected, i wouldn't cry. but that doesn't mean that i'm so un-feeling and all ok. its because i know that i'll definitely see all my friends again, so that is why, i do not feel so sad about any parting. it isn't wrong to think this way right? :Di felt very loved SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-38082936929626225972008-09-14T17:51:00.002+08:002008-09-14T17:55:56.755+08:003 days. i finished 命中注定我爱你(: and it's back to the books tomorrow. i enjoyed these three days.and i know more of these days will come after the As.:Da picture of my love haha:DSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-64684440527384895592008-09-12T21:23:00.003+08:002008-09-13T00:18:26.151+08:00and what should i say. the prelims are over and done and all that is left are the As.i guess i tried my best this time.but somehow i get the feeling that my best is not sufficient. what if this happens during the As! practice practice and more practice! during the course of this week, i've been having some morbid thoughts. not on purpose but they just slipped into my mind. take for example, the SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-66332315627929787492008-07-30T20:41:00.001+08:002008-07-30T20:43:24.145+08:00My Love will get you homeIf you wander off too farMy love will get you homeIf you follow the wrong starMy love will get you homeIf you ever find yourself Lost and all aloneGet back on your feet and think of meMy love will get you home Boy My love will get you homeIf the bright lights blinds your eyesMy love will get you homeIf your troubles break your strideMy love will get you homeIf you ever SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-19534614156585533002008-07-30T20:27:00.002+08:002008-07-30T20:36:15.987+08:00stars!truffle cake my mum baked(:new shoes.well maybe not so new anymoremy brother's ice cream birthday cake!SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-42569039738995729092008-07-06T15:52:00.002+08:002008-07-06T16:05:41.735+08:00the past few days have been good. partly because out of a 5 day school week, i've only gone to school for 3, one of which was college day which felt like a holiday too. this week feels like the june holidays with a more relaxing mood (read: i haven't started studying yet!)i've been online watching the dbsk banjun dramas which are so entertaining and not forgetting their mvs (:after attending SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-79291563023340809722008-07-01T12:36:00.003+08:002008-07-01T12:51:45.265+08:00i guess i haven't been online for some time. and block tests 2 are over(: but as ship reminded us just after math, prelims would be in 6 weeks. so people should be studying now instead of celebrating or doing any form of enjoyment. but of course, who would. i've been watching dbsk:D i know i'm slow since they debut-ed in 05 or 06 but i'm watching them only now. what a time considering the As thisSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-75659818118893146042008-05-30T08:43:00.002+08:002008-05-30T08:51:08.027+08:00i can't believe i'm getting affected by ultraman all over againi will try not to think about itmug hard all!! :Don a slightly random note, it's 155/154 days to the As.so what am i even doing here.new love:D SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-41568070886408932652008-05-15T18:14:00.002+08:002008-05-15T18:43:02.679+08:00i was having a dilemma as to whether to blog or not. tomorrow being a mock spa day and time should be spent studying and all. but well, i succummbed(sp) to blogging in the end. i came online to check for a packing list for camp tomorrow but i ended up going everywhere and got distracted.the weeks of tests are almost over and the ocip exhibition went alright and smoothly without much glitches.(: iSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-31021947707176254962008-04-27T21:59:00.002+08:002008-04-27T22:01:10.947+08:00it's time to study for chem spa!i hope everything goes well next week!and on a random note, i'm so in love with dbsk's proud.i know i'm slowSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-80474094571859796092008-04-18T23:37:00.003+08:002008-04-19T00:07:14.341+08:00much has happened and i think i've kind of finally am able to let go. to not get so bothered at the nitty gritty things but look at the big picture which is the ending point and all the major stuff and all. so you will not bother me anymore and i've come to accept you as who you are. i learnt something: if you have nothing better to say, then just don't say anything. so that's what i'll do.i've SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-63443779514416787802008-04-13T15:24:00.002+08:002008-04-13T15:46:07.745+08:00happiness turned to relief, which gradually evolved into disapointment and lastly sadness.i got my first ever B in a very major examinationbut whatever it is, i really am grateful for all the help i received in helping me get a B nonetheless.my mum bought dewberry for me to reward me for getting a b, but that is not the point, really.no one can understand my feelings about getting a b.maybe SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-55674157877715711282008-04-07T23:50:00.003+08:002008-04-07T23:54:28.220+08:00i don't want to say anymore.the more i say, the more i offend peoplewhen i say things when i mean it, i am serious and i don't say it jokingly and i have a serious tone.and when i don't mean things, i'm just joking and it is not meant to be taken seriously. please dont take what i say under these circumstances seriously, pleasei hope people don't get offended and distinguish what i mean from whatSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-78609259909351616732008-03-29T14:26:00.002+08:002008-03-29T14:49:38.132+08:00self-consolation does not work anymore. it is just so hard. i feel so bad that i had did so badly for the block tests. i keep telling myself that block test is just a small pebble. this is what i remembered from joanne chua's consolation when i was upset over tests. that the As are the big big giantic rock and the small pebbles don't matter as much. but this only means that i fell short of my ownSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-57905824367009421782008-03-21T23:47:00.002+08:002008-03-21T23:51:12.462+08:00this is really good:Dthese 2 days have been fruitful, whiling my time away. but i've been filling my mind with useful thingsi dont like getting 'so wonderfully tired', yet.SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-32627819172175075172008-03-19T22:14:00.002+08:002008-03-19T22:58:20.590+08:00what total burnout.for the first time ever in my life as a student, i felt like giving up in an exam. had chem on mon, bio and econs on tues and math on wed. monday night tuesday was the worst day ever. on monday, i went home not knowing how tp split my time betweeen bio and econs. but thankfully, what i memorized was tested, so i got lucky there. and the point that i felt so mentally drained wasSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-60384531511253537122008-03-08T10:32:00.002+08:002008-03-08T10:53:42.641+08:00this week has been good.gp is over and done with. i don't wish to think about it until after all the block tests are over.and as for chinese, i'm glad to say that i didn't let myself down. and i'm going to study real hard this year so that i won't cry because of disappointment. instead, i will cry tears of joy next year. i was talking to my mum yesterday, of my fear of not being able to attain SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-49853123985474107032008-02-29T22:24:00.003+08:002008-02-29T23:06:55.310+08:00i guess i've gotten my thinking sorted out, for nowi've kind of accepted the fact that i'll never be able to click with some people in class.and it's been so long i've no more energy to carry on trying to build that bond.maybe i haven't put in enough effort but everything takes two to clap.so i guess the problem doesn't lie with me alonebut that doesn't matter so much because i've found good SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-45303743080635706262008-02-24T18:16:00.003+08:002008-02-24T18:25:20.307+08:00there isn't much to say.except school is made interesting by my very entertaining friends.HAIR!i want to go on a long long holidayand besides studying now, i've also got to pack all my things within these 2 weeks.and i want to move house, but yet i don't.and most of all, i'm not looking forward to taking the more than 1 hour bus ride home.D:SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-53447798611704716992008-02-12T22:02:00.001+08:002008-02-12T22:27:37.685+08:00these few days have been good. the friendship week thing seems to have brightened my mood.today was surprise a friend day. haha and there was this true friends questions. did with sujun and it was so hilarious! zhiyang asked retarded questions and then he asked this question 'what is the name you call ____' and of course, we know the answer to it very well and that is the only question that we SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-72471676923364067692008-02-07T20:52:00.001+08:002008-02-12T22:02:49.216+08:00i think i haven't blogged since last week or so.the past week, has been fine.you know, sometimes i feel, even when i'm surrounded by so many people, i feel so alone. that feeling never fails to surround me. and i find my temper getting worse and at extremes. i guess i've really been thinking far too much than i really should. sometimes, i feel, life's short, and we shouldn't worry so much, but SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-4921185217942247282008-01-26T19:42:00.000+08:002008-01-26T20:32:11.332+08:00replies to tags because it has grown to such a long list.jx: hahaha! yea who would have imagined! what'd u do every week in that cca? make badges as training of arm muscles -.- then go join some cca like rock-climbing. lol. HAI life hasn't been good.i hope you're fine!wanying: hello MAAM! dont hit mariah anymore!! sobbb!shunli: omg xiaozhuu!! YOGA rocks manzz!((:mandy: haha yes! JLC! i think it'sSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-19754975070571883002008-01-19T18:32:00.000+08:002008-01-19T18:36:31.554+08:00this week has been goodi will have the strength to get through the next week. milestones and trainings = ___i've made new observations and more about those soon-ish.for now it's time to go.and to think the reason i came online was to print chem answerstake care, my lovesSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-32841158566108877852008-01-12T10:10:00.000+08:002008-01-12T10:23:51.767+08:00my third post of the year i think.it's morning now and i'm blogging first before i go to the library to study:Dthis week has been fruitful.and i dont seem to feel so j2-ish. and this may have been what the j2s felt last year when the j1s looked at them and felt that they were very old. when it's just 1 year of age gap.something that happened during cca signup :Pj1s: is this the badge making SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-74680019837439035092008-01-06T15:46:00.001+08:002008-01-06T15:48:25.569+08:00i have the nengkan to carry oni suddenly remember this quote from JLC'my mother had the nengkan to ...'push on, my friendsSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-51398984882494122702008-01-01T20:25:00.000+08:002008-01-01T20:42:00.657+08:00this is my first post of the year at 8:26pm.and probably, one of the very few posts for the year.currently, i'm watching 换换爱 and playing neopets and blogging. i hate to be a wet blanket. but i'm forseeing what'll be in my life this year.firstly, a huge and never ending pile of lecture notes and worksheetssecondly, insufficient sleep and dozing off at my dining tablethirdly, never ending tests andSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-52899196171036926642007-12-31T13:23:00.000+08:002007-12-31T13:55:20.254+08:00i'm sorry for the emo post previously, but i guess i had to rant everything there.i decided that my last post of 2007 should not be an emo one!and i love happy endings!:D watched one million star last night! and the judge said that yoga was the best! well he didnt exactly phrase it that way, but he said he had the technique and the feelings, whereas the rest had just one of those. and he just hadSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-28190313447393760042007-12-31T13:16:00.000+08:002007-12-31T13:22:48.466+08:00i'm not trying to be sensitive, but i'm really upset about what you've done.maybe this is all what you're trying to prove, that you are the only capable one, but did u ever think how i would feel.how hurt i would be.maybe you think this is what you should be doing, but did u consider that i should also be asked first.i'm telling this to you, respect has to be earned.if you don't respect others SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-56859663246633322402007-12-29T22:32:00.000+08:002007-12-29T23:24:29.479+08:00i hate to say this, but i hate being used. not used as in used used. but as in to be of use to someone. like once you are of no more value to the person, the person just casts you off. but this is how life goes, isn't it.yesterday i was looking at some lists and i found out that some of the people i know were retained. and i felt kindof sad for them. it's not that i know them very well, but it's SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-35298715037439022502007-12-27T21:20:00.000+08:002007-12-27T21:31:22.785+08:00second post today :Ocatched warlords yesterday and i think it's a nice show, in spite of the violence and the killing scenes. :Dthe end of 2007 is coming soon, and i can still remember the first day of school vividly.i was so afraid of fitting in but yet looking forwardbut the same cannot be said for the start of 2008. i'm really not looking forward to more lectures and more tutorials and more ofSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-22832044639764384792007-12-27T20:55:00.000+08:002007-12-27T21:06:46.079+08:00one of my last few posts before '08!today my post shall be about a new found group- 星光帮！i think their voices are really good and powerful!i cant seem to post their video here D:i'll try another timeand yoga is very cute!AH finally! 因为我相信SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-8576073214365939822007-12-19T22:36:00.000+08:002007-12-19T22:59:09.198+08:00i'm here to blog again, after a short disappearance. these few days of my life have been considered quite meaningful, and i nguess i've been making good use of my time, apart from the occasional stoning at the library after studying for quite a while. and yes, you saw correctly, studying. it is a must to start studying now, for my poly-A tails.don't call me a mugger, because i'm not.met jx on SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-79895146214773697262007-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:002007-12-08T00:18:42.963+08:00these few days i:feel nostalgic and i miss karimun!met up with ocip team and had lots of fun!(:havent been studyingwent out quite abitenjoyed life, for once in a long long whiletoday, i know the feeling of regret!why had i known that! it'd have been much much better if i didn'tso, as the quote goes, 'what you don't know won't kill you'.it's such a dilemma, really.but i've never regretted going SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-90113630680642045742007-12-06T22:20:00.000+08:002007-12-06T22:30:56.324+08:00i'm still missing the kids!and i know i'm sounding like some paedophile.but still.time to upload photos!me and cantik malisame and ganteng hermawan!club 27! or part of it(:lazy to type stuff already:Oi want the videos! esp the memorial service of the ball.lolSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-39588230671669569552007-12-03T23:06:00.000+08:002007-12-03T23:51:05.351+08:00hellooi'm back from ocip at karimun islandduring the past 6 days, i've experienced alot of things that i normally wouldn'ti was assigned to work at the primary school site, so the children there are around 6 to 12 years old. i'm really amazed at their childlike innocence. the way they can be satisfied or content when someone gives them a sweet. where else can you find this? and they are so SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-4796590398281392882007-11-27T21:11:00.000+08:002007-11-27T21:54:26.228+08:00i'm leaving on a plane, NOTright now, i'm feeling the anxiety of leaving for OCIP tomorrowcrossing borders, touching lives:Di'm apprehensive, but yet anticipating what'll happenit's kind of a very exciting feeling.and i'm in a very good mood nowocip rehearsals have been fun.i think it was quite funny when the whole team hummed chori chori when the cd player broke down:/went out for class outing(SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-46842684448132901282007-11-25T20:39:00.001+08:002007-11-25T20:41:47.888+08:00it hurts to know those you thought were your friends actually aren't when you ask them for favours. really.SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-14365143062111784352007-11-22T10:25:00.000+08:002007-11-22T11:10:29.794+08:00this cannot go oni must not forget the resolution i set to myself when the holidays begani just realised this is a nice song when i watched high school musical 2(:Gotta Go My Own WayGabriellaI gotta say what's in my mindSomething about usdoesn't seem right these dayslife keeps getting in the wayWhenever we try, somehow the planis always rearrangedIt's so hard to sayBut I've gotta do what's best SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-1701701779959706702007-11-17T21:06:00.000+08:002007-11-17T21:58:42.981+08:00hoho quick update:this week i:1. went for training and got so tired with all my muscles aching but felt it was worth all the while because since i've been eating so much i should exercise and burn off fats2. met the 3(xh j f) of them for my belated birthday celebration and enjoyed myself even though i was tired from training.(: and received my birthday present from them which i like very much3. SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-76134314582874195172007-11-13T12:55:00.000+08:002007-11-13T12:57:05.284+08:00'i think tt it's not difficult to be happy..it's just a matter of your mindset and outlook on life. ((:'quited from angela's blog.i find this quite true:DSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-91979336033839288182007-11-11T21:12:00.001+08:002007-11-11T21:42:22.830+08:00it's the time to blog about what happened yesterday and more proper thank yous to my dear friends!amanda!; hey this is in reply to your card! haha i'm honoured that you spent my birthday with me! haha and yes, i'm really glad that we've remained close this year.thanks so much for the FIR album, i'll lend you the next time i see you!:Di'll finish replying your letter soon(:angela!; haha hey i'm SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-14128068679183212672007-11-11T01:26:00.000+08:002007-11-11T22:14:28.954+08:00thanks to the many people: amanda, angela, chongping, felicia, jiayen, joanne, kahhwee, kinshen, mabel, melissa, michelle, oggy, seowli, shihao, ship, shunli, sujun, tania, tingyu, waisum, wenyu, xuehui, yehan, zena.and my dearest family!:D and some i think i left out went out today with jx and angela! thanks so much for the presents!:D i really appreciate it:Di was the second to arrive and we SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-28467301378473142142007-11-07T21:03:00.000+08:002007-11-07T21:22:09.233+08:00once again, it's time to blog before i get my daily dose of romantic princesswent to school today for pw. the last, final part of pw- the handing up of gpf. i was quite surprised that actually, we didn't have much.like you know, after working on sth for 9 months, you'd expect something more. but all we had individually was PI, EoM and I&R. and for group, there was gpp. it seemed so little. but SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-55916298961419447312007-11-06T23:03:00.000+08:002007-11-06T23:09:58.353+08:00cute guy!ive been watching 公主小妹 and i think it's very nice!there's zun! and calvin too!!!oh dear, i'm sounding like some crazy fan of theirs! :pSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-9556124282688337122007-11-06T20:37:00.000+08:002007-11-06T20:59:37.589+08:00while waiting for videos to load, i shall blog a little.these 2days have been ocip, ocip, and romantic princess!!well it's quite fun, but tiring. i've got to dance! and imagine that, chinese cultural dance! well people may say that my normal actions are gentle. but when i dance, i feel like a clumsy elephant! as quoted, i have only half a dancing cell in me.XDduring the first rehearsal, we SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-73338207789771707262007-11-02T22:17:00.001+08:002007-11-02T23:50:57.531+08:00so it seems, i'm in a good mood today, and it's night time. so expect a light hearted entry today(:the OP was over today. i guess, it was my best effort among all the practices. so i can say that i've not let myself down and i've given in my all? but the q&a was really screwed. grrrr. but in the least, it's over finally. all the late nights, practices in front of the mirror was not in vain. we SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-4691569926432630682007-10-31T11:52:00.000+08:002007-10-31T12:26:58.443+08:00i find that generally, i'm in a better mood in the morning:Dahaha, last night, at 2am, i finally finished my second draft of I&R. all thanks to angela, who sent me samples i could refer to. i do not dare to imagine how late i'd have stayed up till without those samples.i've been reading quite alot these days. in the past, i used to always read just romance novels. but these few weeks, i can say SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-65245962089530413522007-10-29T23:17:00.000+08:002007-10-29T23:47:53.264+08:00okay i'm finally back to blogging.since my comp was down with a virus and i could only use the laptop for pw and ocip stuff.first of all, i want to thank everyone for tagging(okay i know this sounds weird) but ya, since i've not been replying but you all have not stopped tagging. so i want to 'thank' all of you for it:Dquick update of events1.mt As today- it was quite okay for me. although i haveSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-27545476737478214882007-10-22T21:52:00.000+08:002007-10-22T21:55:38.264+08:00oh damni can't wait for pw to be overeverything is just sothere's still a long way to goi guess i can't handle thisSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-88430811404560221892007-10-04T14:51:00.000+08:002007-10-04T16:22:00.846+08:00finally, i have the liberty to do nothingbut yet, it is not with joy that i am able to do sono, i'm not going to think so much.during thisperiod of time, i:ate alotslept very littledrank lots of teasaw lots of jayyy at the librarymade the school library my second homei cant remember much already!for now,i just want tosavour th e moment!heart shaped grape!!SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-49470604699240780702007-09-07T21:25:00.000+08:002007-09-07T22:14:23.823+08:00random pictures i decided to upload since i had to clear memory space:Ddistance from ladder to fan is so great and i've a fear of heights! and i had to clean the fanclose up of a fly i took.looks cool.jx!!a picture of my shoe when it was still clean and new:Dmy pledgethis was how red i looked after trainingokay after all that randomness i'm starting to blogi had decided to blog only after the SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-42935616253482725782007-08-26T20:50:00.000+08:002007-08-26T20:53:30.208+08:00i hope for all the best the coming weeki have to be so motivated to get through next weekso bless me ya?so hang in there all yeah(:SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-24041869991344154542007-08-18T19:22:00.000+08:002007-08-19T21:49:17.415+08:00I’m feeling so bad now.I’m feeling so frustratedI’m irritatedI’m now irritated at myself for feeling this wayI know I’m too quick to judge people but from what I see, it is this wayIt’s enough that you leave me more to do, but you completed yours half heartedly, such that I had to redo your part. And you went awayWhy make your work mine?Yes we did it togetherWe agreed to split the workBut u left,SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-79947950427344642562007-08-11T23:18:00.000+08:002007-08-11T23:41:16.747+08:00it's been a long time since i blogged. well, probably not a very long time. but yeahi've been feeling so exasperated with myself of late. i cant seem to get back the momentum of studying again. promos are nearing and i feel so tired everyday. i fall asleep at the table at almost 11 and i end up not accomplishing muchdarn. i really want to discipline my mind. i'll stop coming online so often SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-7229781527275292412007-08-05T21:41:00.000+08:002007-08-05T21:44:28.541+08:00My Personality Neuroticism87Extraversion44Openness To Experience35Agreeableness52Conscientiousness61 You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be extremely sensitive and emotional. A desire for tradition does not SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-11147351237565357852007-08-03T20:41:00.000+08:002007-08-03T20:43:55.525+08:00it hurts so much to know that you have given your bestto have achieved nothingSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-56891929587156027962007-07-26T21:47:00.000+08:002007-07-27T00:10:16.197+08:00it's 1128pm now and i've just finished my final draft of EoM. i gave it my best shot.:D i happily thought that it was due on next mon until i saw my timetable. fri: pw. so that explains the rush.bio spa and h1 common test next week. and i haven't really studied econs yet. this is the outcome of dragging, thinking that i have lots of time and when finally time passes and when time runs out, SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-18719241306498616992007-07-15T22:31:00.000+08:002007-07-15T22:41:07.165+08:00quick update now..just completed EoM.and my life is boring.it's school in the morning/afternoon, training, study, and the occasional going out with afc.i didn't fail any of my subjects in cts, but that is beside the point okay.not failing does not equate to doing well alrighti don't deny that i'm disappointed but that will only serve to spur me on even more.BIO-CCHEM-CMATH-EGP-DCHINESE-Ai won't SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-30770943476091803212007-07-13T00:00:00.000+08:002007-07-13T00:02:21.209+08:00give me the power, the strength, to go the length of the journeySAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-61899969254224498972007-07-08T22:38:00.000+08:002007-07-08T23:05:29.747+08:00i realised that my previous post was quite emo. and that was because i didn't want to make myself too obvious and that would show my weakness. but now i've realised that it is me to say everything and trying to be abstract would not be me. so i guess, i'll be reflective againjust finished finding articles for eom. i hope it is suitable because i've really put effort into looking for these two SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-52282118181929114432007-07-07T13:46:00.000+08:002007-07-07T14:03:52.047+08:00you know, i'm really trying not to, but i can't help feeling that way.but just leave me be, alrightfor i'll be content standing in that cornerSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-63212897731113614772007-06-29T22:18:00.000+08:002007-06-29T22:42:55.128+08:00i'm doomedSAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-17164951188735529552007-06-07T21:53:00.000+08:002007-06-07T22:04:14.679+08:00oh my i'm here again.i've got to stop coming online so often! must study! tmr's a day set aside for studying, going to libraty to study! next week too. so i'm not going out so much. common tests after the holidays. i guess i'm so dead.clique outing today!i was late!, by 1 hour and 36 mins! and it was because i had touch before that, so i couldn't leave. it's a record okay because i'm always earlySAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-22039713429335812082007-06-05T20:25:00.000+08:002007-06-05T20:31:00.950+08:00kbox today with tingyu and mao!五月天黄金海岸的岸边我们肩并著肩洁净的蓝天清澈的水面吻成一条海平线看你温柔的双眼弹著吉他的弦歌词是诺言旋律是依恋唱出一首五月天五月的天刚诞生的夏天我们之间才完成的爱恋紧握的手里面有好多明天五月的天梦开始要鲜艳前方蜿蜒一长串的心愿我们一天一天慢慢实现such a nice song!!haha rocker!! SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-80587738003168319482007-06-02T21:24:00.000+08:002007-06-02T22:32:27.538+08:00 i'll always remember waiting here for chem practical to starthow nice crescent has become i finally went back to crescent to collect the Os cert. so many people had collected theirs liao.random pictures of crescent. but i didnt upload all that i took. so i'll send the others to you when you're online okay, jx. we decided to eat at the canteen, and i ate charsiew rice. one of my favourite food SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-77102704391238900812007-05-30T09:43:00.000+08:002007-05-30T10:27:48.750+08:00okay well. i just read someone's blog and i had the inspiration to blog suddenly.the holidays are here and i know i'm supposed to study hard for the upcoming common tests . but there're so much to study that i dont know where and how to start. but i know i will eventually. tons of work to be done. but i will find my own balance.i sound like i'm depressed,but i am not, really.visited carmen's SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-15806814280113473822007-05-24T20:44:00.000+08:002007-05-24T21:28:30.958+08:00a long time since i bloggedthe last entry was about touch camp. so it was about 2 weeks agoquite a lot has happened since then.but i've forgot most of it! but i'll try to rmb and type it in herei was sick last week, not in the mind of course, as some would suggesthad gastric flu after lunch on one day and i was in pain until i got home at 6. and i had to speak during gp for some debate and that SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5707334.post-29579039779259663392007-05-14T16:15:00.000+08:002007-05-14T16:21:49.651+08:0010 minutes to blog, then i'll chiong bio and chem!touch camp from fri to sun! the only stuff i rmb was superglue when i cried.i cried not because the seniors were fierce, but how they could be like this. okay i know they were kind of acting, but still, i was affected by it lathen nightwalk with tingyu!!we were so freaked out by everythingand omg!! VALUE!! damn funny!michelle and steph!SAMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00636440290202551323noreply@blogger.com0